Open Letter to Edge (Which he will never read but whatever)

Dear Edge,

As always i sat down on Monday to watch RAW. They showed the clip of you having to make an important announcement, right away my heart skipped a beat and whether i wanted to believe it or not i know what was coming.

I have been following your career closely for about 10 years. Wrestling has always been a part of my life, of me growing up. So i was lucky enough to see you from wearing your PVC coat and coming out through the fire (i always thought it would melt any minute) to becoming the goofy and lovable Edge with Christian, which ultimately made me the huge fan i am today, to turning into this psycho that here in Ireland they didn't even show it on TV because apparently it was too 'tough, harcore & real' (That's what i have been told by my provider when i asked them why we didn't get to see it). Which just made everybody even more interested what you would be coming up next week.

I have seen it all and enjoyed every single second seeing you on the TV. Never a dull moment, always so entertaining to watch always taking my mind of the things that went on my my life. It helped me getting through some of the hardest things, from being in abusive relationships to being sexually abused. (Never openly said this!) For those few hours every week, i turned on the TV and was just taken somewhere else. Watching you made me laugh so much. Edge, this extreme character... so entertaining.

Expectations vs Reality

I was lying in bed the other night and couldn't sleep, me and my sleeping is really fucked up most of the time. But that is i not what this is about. I started to think about something.

The thing is that you know how we get to hear about people in the media all the time. And how we form our opinions about them... how we have our own 'visions' (if that's what you want to call it) and we think we know them. But then one day we will read and article or meet them and whatever and they turn out to be totally different. I met a good few 'famous' people and some of them were nothing like they pretended to be in the media and some of them were just like i thought they would be.

What i am trying to say is, why do we put so much expectations into those people. Why, for some reason, do we think they are different? I guess we just take everything they say in interviews/articles for the truth. But why? In the end of the day they are just people too... and in my experiences they are the ones who have to lie. They can't just say 'Oh yes sometimes the fans are annoying', they simply can't say it. How would that look, how would their fans react? Do you know what i mean? So basically they (not all of them) have a bad trait everybody hates, they lie. They lie to make themselves look better, to live up to all the expectations we have.

Awww this still makes me smile...

Somebody just send me this video on Twitter and asked if it was me he was talking about. :) Awww it still makes me smile, i can't help it. Sooo sweet. Thanks to patty3Xonly for the video.

Welcome to my insanity!

I thought i needed a place to go to and just say what i want to say. And because i don't have enough to do as it is (joke), i figured why not try this blogspot thing, so here i am.

I will probably use this more to rant then anything else, so don't say i didn't warn you. ;)

But to start this whole blogging thing i figured i would let you know more about me. Which i rarely do to be fair. I simply don't trust people so i tend to keep a lot of things to myself so i guess needless to say this won't be my deepest darkest secrets. lol  But here we go, some things i am willing to share with everybody (like anybody is really going to read this).

Nadine Facts:
- I was born in Germany.
- I moved to Ireland about 9 years ago with just one bag of clothes. (Wow that was tough)
- I would never move back to Germany even though i miss my family.
- I am a huge Kellan Lutz fan, however i am not a huge Twilight fan.
- I have never met Kellan Lutz.
- I am going to a Twilight Convention in Barcelona in April just because Kellan is supposed to be there and i am scared he will have to cancel as i don't care about anybody else there.
- My favorite band is 30 Seconds to Mars and i seen them play 4 times in 2010.
- I've got 2 tattoo's. Both on my wrists.
- I got a little Cougar crush on Zac Efron and even got his calendar for Christmas. LOL
- I run 2 websites: KellanLutzOnline.com and Jared-Leto.net
- I hate liars and never forgive you if you lied to me, don't care who you are.
- I have SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder) and PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder)
- I hate self-pity.
- I'd love to take a Web Design Course but can't afford it.
- I live together with my best friend Marina and her son Kevin.
- I don't want to have kids myself.
- I shot a gun once and it was so much fun.
- I adore WWE Superstar Edge.
- My favorite TV Shows right now are: Dexter, Leverage, White Collar, NCIS: LA and The Vampire Diaries
- My favorite Movies are: The Green Mile, Shawshank Redemption, The Color Purple, The Blind Side, Deep Winter, The Notebook
- The song that always makes me cry:  Here without you by 3 Doors Down
- The song that always puts me in a good mood: Closer to the Edge by 30 Seconds to Mars
- I adore my friends and would do anything for them.
- I'd love to volunteer in New Orleans but can't afford to fly there or i would.
- I'd never tell a secret.
- I don't trust easily but once i do, i trust completely.
- I think life is too short to do what others expect from you so you should do what you want. It's your life!
- Found out my Grandmothers cancer has returned & i am scared i won't see her again.
- I am me, always.
- The best present i ever got was a simple 'Thank you' card (this christmas). I am not material. 

I guess those are a few things. Maybe i will update this or post a follow up. I just read back on it and to be fair i guess everybody already knew all this. hahaha Ah well...

In case anybody reads this (i highly doubt it) why don't you tell me a few facts about yourself? Would love to read it. :)